There’s a brick wall in my chest that I need to get over if I’m ever going to fully move in from this. I just don’t even know where to start?? I’ve never been good at this kind of thing and have never been in such a strange place and I don’t want to dwell but it’s not fair to just let it sit there untouched. How do you talk to someone who doesn’t want to talk to you when you already have a hard time talking to people in the first place? How do you let someone you hurt know they are still important & special to you? Does it even matter if they wouldn’t care to know/hear it/would probably just shut you down? Possibly, maybe, no?
I never have any answers, I base all my decisions on my feelings and stupid impulses and yet all I want are definitive answers from other people. I can be selfish at times.
How strange is it that in just a few short months I can feel like a completely different person.